just a little free flowin'

I've been meaning to write for the past few weeks. I'd have moments of inspiration but never the follow-through to sit down and write. My thoughts feel like fragments. Or maybe seeds would be a better description. They aren't broken, just not fully grown. And even now as I sit here to write, I don't really know how to phrase the feelings and things rolling around in my brain and body.

So much of my time recently has been spent at work or trying to plan out the practicals of what I need to do next, I haven't had much time to dream. So here is a little free-flow dreaming...




I dream of connecting deeply, intimately, of gathering people together and calling those who feel alone into family.
I dream of adventures and doing wild and crazy things, of having a home that is never empty but is full of friends and soon-to-be-friends. I long to see broken things made new, to listen and not hear peoples words but the cries of their hearts.

I want to create beautiful things, to go deeper and deeper and deeper, to spend more time outside than in, for my hands to be dirty, and my heart pure.
I long for my heart beat to be His, that my gaze my be His, that my first thoughts be of Him. To love like a bride, listen like a daughter, to live as His friend, and like a servant to get low.

soft heart.
generous heart.
strong heart.
courageous heart.
thankful heart.
faithful heart.

heart full of faith.

Like Abraham, I want to give glory to God, fully convinced that He is able to what He has promised, so that I can love life in the tension of what is now and what will be.

I want to do the impossible.



I could go on, but its about time for me to do some real dreaming so I guess I'll end there for now. I love you guys. Miss ya like crazy!